If you want to know why God has something against you, it's real simple, it's because you want to run your life. You don't want Jesus Christ to run your life; it just that's simple, that's all there is too it. The problem is you want to do, what you want to do, when you want to do it. The reason you reject Christ is because if you receive Jesus Christ, the Holy Spirit will bring Christ into you, and you won't be able to do what you want to do then. Human nature doesn't like having checks or restraints put on it.
You have sinned against God, and come short of His glory. You are a rebel against your Maker, lay down your arms. Your conscience has been stained repeatedly by your sins. God knows all about your sins, He knows what you have done, when and where and why. God is Light, and spiritual light exposes everything in our lives. Be honest, get real, admit your guilt. Sonship comes by faith in Jesus (Justification), fellowship comes by walking (moral thoughts and conduct) with Jesus (Sanctification).
Stay close to Jesus. Expose your life to the light of Scripture and the Holy Spirit. Honesty with God leads to harmony with one another. Jesus can cleanse and forgive all sin, only Jesus can wipe the sin from your heart. Be honest about your sins, stay close to Jesus, get real about with walking with Jesus, admit everything when you sin against God, stop wasting your life messing around with sin.
The downward spiral of Sin is this - first denial, then minimization, normalization, rationalization, justification, and celebration. Denial, that wasn't me. Minimization, it's not that big of a deal. Normalization, everybody does it today. Rationalization, you don't know my circumstances. Justification, I don't see anything wrong with it, it doesn't bother me. Celebration, my life has never been better, life is good, God doesn't mind, loosen up. You begin to twist the Scriptures, so you can embrace your sin.
Human nature says, "Sin is isn't really sinful, there is no reason to feel guilty about anything you do, don't blame yourself because your behavior is not your fault, you are not a sinner, you are a victim of your society (unemployment, poverty, lack of education), refuse to accept blame which only causes stress, let go your guilty feelings, enjoy your sin responsibly." Today, sin is being redefined, and depravity is being downplayed, because men love sin. Justifying your sin leads to self-deception. Confess your sins, open admission to everything, agree with God about your sins. Admit you have disobeyed God, and agreeing that you have no excuse for sinning against Him. Your sinfulness and specific sins; what you are, and what you've done; the root of sin, and the fruit of sin must be dealt with by faith in the Blood of Jesus.
You do not want Jesus Christ, God manifest in the flesh, telling you who should marry and not marry, what you should eat and not eat, what hours you should keep. You don't want God's Son telling what books He wants you to read, or to listen to the music He wants you to listen to. Jesus should decide who your friends and companions are, how you spend your money, your occupation, your diet, your place of employment, and your place of recreation. If you had to choose one Man, to completely rule over your life, who would you choose? Well, any wise man would choose Jesus Christ, and not himself.
The proud earthly wisdom of a natural man in his love for his sins leads him to reject Jesus Christ repeatedly. If you die in your natural state without being born again of the Spirit of God, you will go straight to Hell when you die. God makes a fool out of smart-alecks that reject His Son. By human wisdom the world knows not God. The way down to Hell is this - Men first become unthankful and forget God, then they refuse to glorify God, then they adopt evolution (man came from animals), and then they wind up being sodomites (sex perverts) (See Romans 1). The spirit of this world wants you to accept sex perversion as normal. Every atheist is totally crooked from top to bottom, because he is a Christ rejecter. God gives every atheist a reprieve from divine justice every day he lives.
To this end was Jesus Christ born, and for this cause came He into the world, that He should bear witness unto the Truth. Every one that is of the truth heareth His voice. If you don't hear Jesus Christ's voice, you are not of the truth. He that is of God heareth God's words: ye therefore hear them not, because ye are not of God. Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths. Be not wise in thine own eyes: fear the LORD, and depart from evil. Acknowledge Christ, ask His counsel, guidance, and advice all the time, ask Him for wisdom, seek Christ for Help and Direction, consult His words, submit to His will, and He will lead you into the truth and light.
Never depend on your own reasoning. Let Christ control your thoughts and desires. Departing from your inward evil is the beginning of wisdom. Without the Fear of the Lord, you don't have any true Wisdom. When a man fears his Maker, he will place his faith in Christ, and fix his dependence on Him, acknowledge Him, and seek Him for direction, and he will careful not to offend the Holy Ghost.
Every atheist worships money and earthly security, but not eternal riches and security. An atheist turns up his nose at the Bible, and he naturally acts independently of God, loves his sin, and winds up losing his soul in the Lake of Fire (the second death). Let your first care to be for your own soul - your sins must be freely forgiven by Jesus Christ, and your soul must be saved eternally by the Blood of Jesus Christ. This world today is filled with innumerable distractions to keep your mind off what really matters - your sins, your soul, and the Crucified Creator.