Your main problem is that you believe in yourself, and not in your Crucified and Risen Creator. Take some wise advice - Don't ever put any trust in yourself. The Bible says in Proverbs 28:26 - "He that trusteth in his own heart is a FOOL." The Proverbs also says, "Fools hate knowledge, fools make a mock at sin, the mouth of the foolish is near destruction, fools die for want of wisdom, the way of a fool is right in his own eyes, the heart of fools proclaim foolishness, a fool lays open his folly, it is abomination to fools to depart from evil, a companion of fools shall be destroyed, the folly of fools is deceit, the fool rages on and is confident, the mouth of fools pour out and feed on foolishness, wisdom is too high for a fool to understand, as a dog return to his vomit so a fool returns to his sin, and the fool walks in darkness." Without Jesus Christ, you are alone in this world, without hope and without God, and you are separated from God right now, and condemned already. Be very careful with your soul, turn it over to Jesus Christ, or you will lose it, that is for sure.
If a man is an atheist, he is an egotist, he's stuck on himself. You're headed for hell, and you've got your mind made up to go, because you're going to trust in Darwin, or your man-made religion right up to the bitter end. There will never be any Bibles or Christians in Hell to bother you, there's no babies or little children in hell, there's no water or food in hell, there'll be no sunny days or blue skies or cool breezes in hell, and there will be no mountains, rivers, lakes, or beaches in hell. That's what men like to see and enjoy, but Hell will only be darkness, fire, weeping, wailing, horrible tempest, gnashing of teeth, and smoke.
It's simple to get to Heaven without Jesus Christ, just be perfect and live a sinless life. There's nothing to it, right, just don't ever make any mistakes in thought, word, or deed all the days of your existence here on earth. But there is no difference in any of us, for all have sinned and come short of the glory of God. There are no sinless people, no exceptions, including you. There's no difference, human nature thinks there's a difference between certain men and women when it comes to SIN, but there's not. The Bible says THERE IS NO DIFFERENCE. The reason a man goes to hell is because he thinks his opinion is more important than the Holy Bible, God's Book.
God became a Jewish man, His name was Jesus of Nazareth, He came down to this sinful earth and lived a sinless life, and He suffered, bled, died and paid for your sin on Calvary's Cross, so you could get to Heaven freely on His Righteousness instead of your own (Romans 10:3-4). Hell is filled with good people that did good deeds on this earth, but their own righteousness cannot save them from the White Throne Judgment (Revelation 20). Darwin and/or religion has conditioned your mind, and this *actual truth* really upsets you. Verily every man at his *best state* is altogether vanity (Psalm 39:5). Only God in the person of Jesus Christ can give you a divine nature that can dwell in His presence safely and enjoy His holy nature forever.
When you die, you will get to Hell really quick. You may ask, "How far down is hell?" Just a step. There is but a step between you and eternal death and darkness in hell fire (Jude 1:6). If you die without Jesus Christ, you'll go to hell like a bullet. Hell is at the end of a Christ-rejecting life. By nature, you're lost and going to hell. Here are Eight roadblocks to keep you from going to Hell: The Holy Spirit, The Holy Bible, a Christian's witness, Calvary's Cross, someone's prayers for you, sermons on Sin-Christ's Blood Atonement-Death-Recompense-Judgment-Hell, your conscience, and the Creation you see every day. If you get to Hell, you will have to work at it like a dog. You can't go to Hell without stomping right over the Blood of Jesus Christ.
Now understand - A man convinced against his will is of the same opinion still. You may have the best intentions and be very sincere, but if you turn up your nose at Jesus Christ and His Righteousness, and refuse what the Scriptures say, you'll cut your soul's jugular vein with the knife of your Unbelief. In the Holy Bible, there is only one escape hatch from Hell, and it is not a religion or a church, it is not good works, meditation, prayers, keeping the golden rule, or doing good to your fellow man. The Bible says that says that Jesus Christ Himself is the Way to Heaven (John 14:6; Romans 10:3-4). And right now, you are either a saved sinner because you have trusted Christ's sinless Blood Atonement to pay for your sins, or you are a lost sinner, because you are trying to work your own way to Heaven. God help you to trust your soul with Jesus Christ before it's too late.