It is good that thou shouldest take hold of this; yea, also from this withdraw not thine hand: for he that feareth God shall come forth of them all. *Ecclesiastes 7:18* The fear of God is a Holy Spirit given desire to please God and not offend Him, no matter what men may think. Do you seek to please God in all you think, say, and do in your private and public life? Earthly, sensual and devilish wisdom leads you to exalt yourself, live independently of God, love and justify your sins, mock the Cross, trust in yourself, and to neglect and reject the Lord Jesus Christ, God manifest in the flesh. Christ Jesus still saves from the love of sin; this is why you avoid him so. Sin is like dynamite - if you keep playing around with it, it is bound to blow in your face.
The world will tell you can have fun but be 'safe' when enjoying your sins, but the Gospel of Christ reveals to you the heinousness, wretchedness, and danger of your sins and causes you to hate and forsake them. There are many Sunday religionists around today, but very few Monday through Saturday Christ-ians. When is the last time you took time to ask for wisdom from above? Wisdom from above leads you *first* to be pure (clean thoughts, wholesome/gracious words, merciful deeds, humility, moral integrity, godliness, honesty), and then to hate and repent of your sins, cleave to the Cross, to trust in Christ's words, person and blood, and then to deny yourself, desire to please God, and to exalt the Lord Jesus Christ with your life and lips. *James 3:17*
Do you love the praise of men more than the praise of God? If any of you lack wisdom, let him ask of God, that giveth to all men liberally, and upbraideth not; and it shall be given him. *James 1:5* The Precious Blood of the Crucified Creator was shed on Calvary's Cross to satisfy divine justice and atone (pay the penalty that was due) for human sin, and now whosoever believeth on the Lord Jesus Christ with all their heart shall be given the forgiveness of sins and everlasting life *freely*. Christ esteem, not self-esteem; Christ exaltation, not self-exaltation; Christ centeredness, not self-centeredness.